And this is the moment. Yes, yes, yes..!!
So, My birthday..!! And as expected I was being wished by so many people around. Friends, siblings, relatives and so on.
Day was going busy on call, those old school friends, I got them back, and that feels like those creamy layer over the cake. Multiple colours, different tastes, but still makes that cake looks beautiful.
I was trying to get over each single toxic emotions of my life. I prayed, I smiled, I planned meetings and I was trying to be happy all around . Though I wasn’t, but yeah..!!
They say repeat something or some habits for 21 days and it’ll become a habit, so I was trying hard for so many things. Though I’ve tried it for so many times still doing the same piece of shit again and again and again.
I didn’t know what was missing, everyone was there I guess, still something was incomplete. And then..
At 9:30 pm . Notification sound..
And it was him, with a text written “Happy birthday”.
And with that sudden text, I got a mini heart attack. And trust me it was a heart attack actually. That text had blocked my throat, as if something got stuck inside. I was shivering . And all the senses was dead. I wanted to cry, I wanted to shout, I wanted to smile. I just don’t understand what that mixed feelings could be named.Your wish was like that cherry over my birthday cake.
On that very moment I realized, this is what I was waiting for the whole day, this is what I want. This is what I craved for. I was afraid to reply but I did “Thank you”. Though the conversation was finished because he never say anything. He ignores each single time. But I wanted to talk, I wanted to continue it to few more messages, though that was useless, but I texted
“Remembered?? ” And got “Isliye toh bola”.
This sounds cheesy but yeah, I did that. Because each single alphabet of his helps me to find I’m alive. He makes me feel alive. And then next exclamation “Unexpected” And got “I do that”.
Yes..!! Yes my love you do unexpected things all the time, you always make me surprise..
You’re my life, I felt that. You’re everything what I craved and still craving. You’ve given me the best gift till now. No one can make me feel like this . Only you can.
I just want you to love me. Please be mine. Please accept me with all my flaws. Please be with me. I need you the most. You’re the reason I want to live. Please help me out in this. Please be mine.
And yeah.. This was One of the best moments of my birthday I’ve felt after meeting you. . Thank you.
Thank you for wishing .
You’ve made my day.
And yeah, I still love you with all my broken heart. I still do. And I know this is forever..